Sunday, April 20, 2014
Catastrophic mess
Mess. Chaos. Disarray. Clutter. Jumble. Muddles.
I cant understand the things going on right. Well to lighten you up, I'm in a bit of a mess. A mess wherein everywhere I go, I would feel guilty, shame, and complete emptiness. You see I'm in a misunderstanding with somehow very important to me. I might not admit it in front of that person but yes, our relationship is very important to me. Im also stubborn. And so is that person! (Sorry, I'd like to keep this slightly private).
I also realized that everytime I have a problem, I would vent out all my thoughts and feelings here in my blog. *Sigh* Maybe this is my only outlet for now...throughout the years I've been more and more quiet or kind of keeping to myself the things that are bothering me. Well, since high school I guess...
All I'm saying is, I'm a complete Catastrophic mess and no one understands. No one would be able to comprehend my needs. Nobody can help me right now...
Monday, April 14, 2014
Summer Class Shenanigans
The start of my summer class is as nerve wracking and exhilarating at the same time. Well, even the night before Monday, I wasn't able to sleep well and the thought of school really pulled my strings. I was excited! I was really determined to pull my grades up now. I know 2nd semester was really scary and to say the least, I learned my lesson.
I was nothing near productive and my way of studying wasn't even conducive. I was a mess and I nearly failed! Guess that "near to death" experience really open up a new door and made me realize my studies should be taken care of now.
I don't want to flunk and be a failure now. I have big dreams, I have never ending hopes and I still have to fulfill my destiny! If you know what I mean.
It may sound cliche, but this year's summer class will be different! It will be something worth looking for and as for my 3rd year in college, I will start everything from scratch!
I know it will be hard but I think I can manage. I hope. ;)
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