Overreacting

The word is Overreacting:

            From my latter post, "Confessions of a Teenage Nobody" I know I've been a little bit melodramatic. I'm a teenager and those things affect me a lot. Especially when I'm really stressed out and mad and confused and just scared...

OVERREACTED: To react with unnecessary or inappropriate force, emotional display, or violence.

            Though there was no any violence nor inappropriate force or something. It's all about the emotional stress. 

And so, my family is OK now. :'D We're somehow putting the pieces back together. Me and my Dad are talking again. Mom's gonna be here on Tuesday (Jan.2,2013) and we'll settle things out. 

I'm really thankful that God answered my prayers. I was devastated for days. I would cry, get nervous, cant even eat, and somehow just curl up in a ball on the bed. Depression was really kicking into me. And it hit me, why should I be like THIS when I can do something that will make my family OK again? And so I texted them, said my apologies (even though Im not what I'm sorry for!) and prayed that everything will be Ok. And Viola!  We're recovering. :'D

Thank You God! 

Happy New Year Guys! :D
Lets start this year filled with love and understanding! <3

Confessions of a Teenage Nobody

Honestly, I dont know how to start this post. I've deleted the last 6 sentences I've made before.

Right now, my mind is in a whirlpool. All I'm thinking is that, Will my family ever be OK again? :'(

I know it is a little bit exaggerated, but for years my Mom and Dad never fought like this before. I never understood why they are like this. Not to mention my Dad is in Cebu City and my Mom is in Passi. And this is the first Christmas after 5 years years that were not together. It really breaks my heart. Maybe it's a curse?

I was never a good child. I did a lot of mistakes in my life. But I never stopped loving them. Though I rarely show my feelings. I wanna get out of this house! I wanna live on my own for a while. I can handle myself. Yes, I can! Just give me money. I'll take care of myself. I can live without talking to them for a very long time. i just don't want them to ruin my future. I'll be independent. Maybe we were not meant to be a happy family after all. :(

My life is not as perfect you see. Sometimes I'm thinking of suicide. Though I know it's not right. But what if it's the only answer. Will they be happy again? One life for the happiness of everybody? Will you be happy now, Mom and Dad? :'( 

Dont say I'm dramatic, coz nobody knows what I'm going through. Nobody understands what I feel. Nobody is understanding enough. They are all selfish! Everyone of them just thought of themselves. I can't even listen to my own thoughts. Sooner or later, don't be confused what I did it. I'm on the edge, maybe its too late, maybe its not. Im hanging on a thread. And if everything goes haywire, I'm not holding back!

Corny and Cheesy. :D

I felt like doing something corny and cheesy tonight. :D
Coz I am also eating something cheesy and Corny. xD
Hope you enjoy this little love letter.

A little bit censored? Dont blame me, blame the Picture. xD

Am I ENOUGH?

Enough.
Definition: In a degree or quantity that satisfies; to satisfaction; sufficiently. 

Am i enough? Enough to satisfy all the people around me? Enough to make the one I love happy? Enough to make my family proud of me?

Am I good enough? Enough to make them smile even though I'm hurting? Enough to love someone who gives me so much than I can return?

There are so many things going through my mind right ow. And somehow I cant even put them into words. Even I, cant understand them. Am I going insane? I think I'm going crazy! So many things to do with so little time. Or is it just me? A little lazy teenage girl. Afraid to get hurt and afraid to step out and be heard. Though I speak my mind a lot. I do what I do best and I get what I want when I want it. Im no brat. I'm just...misunderstood. =\

I  don't get a lot of help these past few days. I feel so empty. So tired all the time. So sad...sad that I don't know what to do anymore. People who don't know me would just say I do this things because Im stupid. But they don't really know what's happening to me. I would probably commit suicide anytime now. Well, not really! Though something like that can change everything, right? For all of us. For everyone who is involve. For the ones who judges me and for the ones who really cares. 

Good thing I still have my faith in God. He's the one who never really left. Even when i did a lot of stupid things. Even though I've been a horrible person. He never forsaken me. I don't see Him...but I feel Him. Inside my heart. In my conscience. Whenever I feel sad and happy. I don't know what I'll do without Him. For Him, I am Enough! 

Hello New Lappi. :D

Even though I just got this new baby, I'm still sad though. It's purely bitter sweet. =\

I lost two of my other laptops. Long story. And I don't feel like telling what really happened. It's too personal. I feel sad. But on the bright side, now I got this new 29k laptop.

 Thanks Lola and Lolo. :"> 

ILS by ♥.

I still remember last year's University Hinampang. :')
It was the high light of my Senior year.(In a way)
We were all so pumped up to play every game. Giving our best shot for it is the last time (for some us) playing during the U - Hinampang.
And without any expectations at all, guess what, we landed 3rd Runner up. :')

ILS Football Girls, Champion. ♥

I still remember that Winning Kick! ♥

Armand's Lucky Studs. :D

My Volleyball girlfriends. :"> 

I miss my high school family. I truly love them and even for just a day, I wish I could play together with them again. :D

Just Keep Swimming!

Swimming time before Sembreak ends! :D 

Had fun today with Alphonse (boyfriend) @ Eldo Water Park.

Its been a long time since we had fun like this. And I really missed it! 

@ Eldo Water Park

Love playing with the waters! ♥

Watching the Night Sky. :D

Hi there! ♥

I recommend you guys going to this place at night. 
The lights are really cool and nice! :D

Thanks Love for this wonderful experience. 
Happy Monthsary! :">

Till this wonderful event again!