Love knows no bound.

 Gwen Stefani - 4 in the Morning

This song is really catchy and it has a real meaning in it not like those other songs all about nonsense things. Though we know what this song is all about. I'm just emphasizing the message it gives. It's about Love. 

When you love someone or when you're in love, the two should be fair. One has to work with the other. Not just a one - sided love affair. Right? When you love someone you also have to be cautious. Don't give your 100% though you also need to show to your partner that you appreciate everything. If it's meant to be, it will be, but if not, then let it fall as time guarantees it. It's all about understanding the one you love, giving your time, effort, second chances and forgiveness. Love knows no bound, and it will conquer any evil there is. If not for a special someone, it maybe from a friend or also from your family. :D 

Bye 2012, Hello 2013!

My 2012 experience! It was a fun ride and it won't stop there! 

Just a compilation of the things that happened to me. :D

JANUARY

A picture with Kiefer Ravena when he went to Passi City! :D

FEBRUARY

Senior Prom with Alphonse. :')

Broadway! (GRUPO)

MARCH

My Graduation Dress. 

Hail Thee Graduation Day!

Awards. I was expecting more. Oh well. :P

APRIL

HSSS Turn - Over Ceremony

Theme: Kids Party

MAY

College of Nursing: Prelude

My soon to be Classmates. :D

JUNE 

Our 1st Anniversary. ♥

Cakes!

JULY

First day wearing our Uniforms. :D

New Friends!

Pag - iririmaw 2012!

Nursing Student Here! :">

CON Acquaintance Party

AUGUST

CON Fun Days!

Wearing P.E Uniform

Night Shift. Amplified 

SEPTEMBER

Ignition during the Math and Science Day (Champions)

Sembreak is Near! Horaaay!

Got my College I.D. (Proud Loyalty Awardee Here! xD)

OCTOBER

Sembreak!

Last NSTP! :D

Happy Birthday John Alphonse Jimena!

He got a Boo Boo! :'(

NOVEMBER

Happy 18th Birthday to me! :D

Swimming before sembreak ends! 

CON Football girls during the U - Hinampang.

Watching the game with my Manangs. :D

Lunch @ Siam

DECEMBER

CON Christmas Party.

Christmas Dinner with High School Friends. :') (Priceless)

Leaving 2012. Love and Happy. :D

Overreacting

The word is Overreacting:

            From my latter post, "Confessions of a Teenage Nobody" I know I've been a little bit melodramatic. I'm a teenager and those things affect me a lot. Especially when I'm really stressed out and mad and confused and just scared...

OVERREACTED: To react with unnecessary or inappropriate force, emotional display, or violence.

            Though there was no any violence nor inappropriate force or something. It's all about the emotional stress. 

And so, my family is OK now. :'D We're somehow putting the pieces back together. Me and my Dad are talking again. Mom's gonna be here on Tuesday (Jan.2,2013) and we'll settle things out. 

I'm really thankful that God answered my prayers. I was devastated for days. I would cry, get nervous, cant even eat, and somehow just curl up in a ball on the bed. Depression was really kicking into me. And it hit me, why should I be like THIS when I can do something that will make my family OK again? And so I texted them, said my apologies (even though Im not what I'm sorry for!) and prayed that everything will be Ok. And Viola!  We're recovering. :'D

Thank You God! 

Happy New Year Guys! :D
Lets start this year filled with love and understanding! <3

Confessions of a Teenage Nobody

Honestly, I dont know how to start this post. I've deleted the last 6 sentences I've made before.

Right now, my mind is in a whirlpool. All I'm thinking is that, Will my family ever be OK again? :'(

I know it is a little bit exaggerated, but for years my Mom and Dad never fought like this before. I never understood why they are like this. Not to mention my Dad is in Cebu City and my Mom is in Passi. And this is the first Christmas after 5 years years that were not together. It really breaks my heart. Maybe it's a curse?

I was never a good child. I did a lot of mistakes in my life. But I never stopped loving them. Though I rarely show my feelings. I wanna get out of this house! I wanna live on my own for a while. I can handle myself. Yes, I can! Just give me money. I'll take care of myself. I can live without talking to them for a very long time. i just don't want them to ruin my future. I'll be independent. Maybe we were not meant to be a happy family after all. :(

My life is not as perfect you see. Sometimes I'm thinking of suicide. Though I know it's not right. But what if it's the only answer. Will they be happy again? One life for the happiness of everybody? Will you be happy now, Mom and Dad? :'( 

Dont say I'm dramatic, coz nobody knows what I'm going through. Nobody understands what I feel. Nobody is understanding enough. They are all selfish! Everyone of them just thought of themselves. I can't even listen to my own thoughts. Sooner or later, don't be confused what I did it. I'm on the edge, maybe its too late, maybe its not. Im hanging on a thread. And if everything goes haywire, I'm not holding back!

Corny and Cheesy. :D

I felt like doing something corny and cheesy tonight. :D
Coz I am also eating something cheesy and Corny. xD
Hope you enjoy this little love letter.

A little bit censored? Dont blame me, blame the Picture. xD

Am I ENOUGH?

Enough.
Definition: In a degree or quantity that satisfies; to satisfaction; sufficiently. 

Am i enough? Enough to satisfy all the people around me? Enough to make the one I love happy? Enough to make my family proud of me?

Am I good enough? Enough to make them smile even though I'm hurting? Enough to love someone who gives me so much than I can return?

There are so many things going through my mind right ow. And somehow I cant even put them into words. Even I, cant understand them. Am I going insane? I think I'm going crazy! So many things to do with so little time. Or is it just me? A little lazy teenage girl. Afraid to get hurt and afraid to step out and be heard. Though I speak my mind a lot. I do what I do best and I get what I want when I want it. Im no brat. I'm just...misunderstood. =\

I  don't get a lot of help these past few days. I feel so empty. So tired all the time. So sad...sad that I don't know what to do anymore. People who don't know me would just say I do this things because Im stupid. But they don't really know what's happening to me. I would probably commit suicide anytime now. Well, not really! Though something like that can change everything, right? For all of us. For everyone who is involve. For the ones who judges me and for the ones who really cares. 

Good thing I still have my faith in God. He's the one who never really left. Even when i did a lot of stupid things. Even though I've been a horrible person. He never forsaken me. I don't see Him...but I feel Him. Inside my heart. In my conscience. Whenever I feel sad and happy. I don't know what I'll do without Him. For Him, I am Enough! 

Hello New Lappi. :D

Even though I just got this new baby, I'm still sad though. It's purely bitter sweet. =\

I lost two of my other laptops. Long story. And I don't feel like telling what really happened. It's too personal. I feel sad. But on the bright side, now I got this new 29k laptop.

 Thanks Lola and Lolo. :">