Hello Mickey!

Monday, December 31, 2012

Overreacting

The word is Overreacting:

            From my latter post, "Confessions of a Teenage Nobody" I know I've been a little bit melodramatic. I'm a teenager and those things affect me a lot. Especially when I'm really stressed out and mad and confused and just scared...

OVERREACTED: To react with unnecessary or inappropriate force, emotional display, or violence.

            Though there was no any violence nor inappropriate force or something. It's all about the emotional stress. 
And so, my family is OK now. :'D We're somehow putting the pieces back together. Me and my Dad are talking again. Mom's gonna be here on Tuesday (Jan.2,2013) and we'll settle things out. 
I'm really thankful that God answered my prayers. I was devastated for days. I would cry, get nervous, cant even eat, and somehow just curl up in a ball on the bed. Depression was really kicking into me. And it hit me, why should I be like THIS when I can do something that will make my family OK again? And so I texted them, said my apologies (even though Im not what I'm sorry for!) and prayed that everything will be Ok. And Viola!  We're recovering. :'D


Thank You God! 

Happy New Year Guys! :D
Lets start this year filled with love and understanding! <3

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Confessions of a Teenage Nobody

Honestly, I dont know how to start this post. I've deleted the last 6 sentences I've made before.
Right now, my mind is in a whirlpool. All I'm thinking is that, Will my family ever be OK again? :'(
I know it is a little bit exaggerated, but for years my Mom and Dad never fought like this before. I never understood why they are like this. Not to mention my Dad is in Cebu City and my Mom is in Passi. And this is the first Christmas after 5 years years that were not together. It really breaks my heart. Maybe it's a curse?
I was never a good child. I did a lot of mistakes in my life. But I never stopped loving them. Though I rarely show my feelings. I wanna get out of this house! I wanna live on my own for a while. I can handle myself. Yes, I can! Just give me money. I'll take care of myself. I can live without talking to them for a very long time. i just don't want them to ruin my future. I'll be independent. Maybe we were not meant to be a happy family after all. :(
My life is not as perfect you see. Sometimes I'm thinking of suicide. Though I know it's not right. But what if it's the only answer. Will they be happy again? One life for the happiness of everybody? Will you be happy now, Mom and Dad? :'( 
Dont say I'm dramatic, coz nobody knows what I'm going through. Nobody understands what I feel. Nobody is understanding enough. They are all selfish! Everyone of them just thought of themselves. I can't even listen to my own thoughts. Sooner or later, don't be confused what I did it. I'm on the edge, maybe its too late, maybe its not. Im hanging on a thread. And if everything goes haywire, I'm not holding back!


Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Corny and Cheesy. :D

I felt like doing something corny and cheesy tonight. :D
Coz I am also eating something cheesy and Corny. xD
Hope you enjoy this little love letter.


A little bit censored? Dont blame me, blame the Picture. xD

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Am I ENOUGH?

Enough.
Definition: In a degree or quantity that satisfies; to satisfaction; sufficiently. 

Am i enough? Enough to satisfy all the people around me? Enough to make the one I love happy? Enough to make my family proud of me?

Am I good enough? Enough to make them smile even though I'm hurting? Enough to love someone who gives me so much than I can return?

There are so many things going through my mind right ow. And somehow I cant even put them into words. Even I, cant understand them. Am I going insane? I think I'm going crazy! So many things to do with so little time. Or is it just me? A little lazy teenage girl. Afraid to get hurt and afraid to step out and be heard. Though I speak my mind a lot. I do what I do best and I get what I want when I want it. Im no brat. I'm just...misunderstood. =\

I  don't get a lot of help these past few days. I feel so empty. So tired all the time. So sad...sad that I don't know what to do anymore. People who don't know me would just say I do this things because Im stupid. But they don't really know what's happening to me. I would probably commit suicide anytime now. Well, not really! Though something like that can change everything, right? For all of us. For everyone who is involve. For the ones who judges me and for the ones who really cares. 

Good thing I still have my faith in God. He's the one who never really left. Even when i did a lot of stupid things. Even though I've been a horrible person. He never forsaken me. I don't see Him...but I feel Him. Inside my heart. In my conscience. Whenever I feel sad and happy. I don't know what I'll do without Him. For Him, I am Enough! 



Thursday, November 22, 2012

Hello New Lappi. :D

Even though I just got this new baby, I'm still sad though. It's purely bitter sweet. =\
I lost two of my other laptops. Long story. And I don't feel like telling what really happened. It's too personal. I feel sad. But on the bright side, now I got this new 29k laptop.



 Thanks Lola and Lolo. :"> 





Tuesday, November 20, 2012

ILS by ♥.

I still remember last year's University Hinampang. :')
It was the high light of my Senior year.(In a way)
We were all so pumped up to play every game. Giving our best shot for it is the last time (for some us) playing during the U - Hinampang.
And without any expectations at all, guess what, we landed 3rd Runner up. :')


ILS Football Girls, Champion. 


I still remember that Winning Kick!



Armand's Lucky Studs. :D


My Volleyball girlfriends. :"> 


I miss my high school family. I truly love them and even for just a day, I wish I could play together with them again. :D

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Just Keep Swimming!

Swimming time before Sembreak ends! :D 
Had fun today with Alphonse (boyfriend) @ Eldo Water Park.
Its been a long time since we had fun like this. And I really missed it! 


@ Eldo Water Park


Love playing with the waters!


Watching the Night Sky. :D


Hi there!


I recommend you guys going to this place at night. 
The lights are really cool and nice! :D
Thanks Love for this wonderful experience. 
Happy Monthsary! :">

Till this wonderful event again! 

Saturday, October 20, 2012

HELP

Drive Testing. :D

I'll be turning 18 in a few days. I just made this one. I don't know if I'm excited or nervous.
Holy Crap! 
Somehow I don't like the idea of me getting old. I don't wanna be all so grown up and proper. I wanna be like a kid. A teenager who's carefree and can do anything she wishes. But somehow I really can't avoid that. Though, it's just a number...My age matters to me! It only means I'm living my childhood behind. Stepping out and emerging into a young adult. A lady. I'm so not ready for it! 
For starters, I know I'm immature and can't really make my own decisions without contradicting myself over and over again. I still need guidance. Advice from my parents, teachers and my friends. 
I'm too nervous for this! 

HELP!!!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012



XD Girls. :">
I miss dancing with this people! Chicka moments and Laughtrip to the max! 



Sembreak aint boring at all thanks to this Gals! :D 


Monday, October 15, 2012

Welcome Baby Tigger


Meet Baby Tigger. :D
Birthday: October 15, 3012
He was what you called an "accidental" baby. Lol. Though we love him as much as we love our other babies. :') Aint he cute? :D 
He is orange, fluffy, cuddly and cute! You've gotta meet him! 

Remember Baby Mickey? They are so Adorable! Thanks Dad!



Sunday, October 14, 2012

Movie Review: Tulak


Summary:
          Tulak is a story of a boy named Tikboy who grew up in the slums of Manila City, introduced to drugs at an early age, got addicted to it, and realized in the end what was wrong from right.
          Tikboy grew up with in the care of his Aunt and Uncle who are drugs pushers and also users. He never knew of his parents’ whereabouts. It’s either there are hiding because of drugs or unfortunately, dead. At an early age, Tikboy suffered a lot from his Uncle, Abdon. Beaten up or pushed to sell drugs is their daily routine and to think he is a Cop. While his Aunt, Lukring works as a prostitute and also a battered wife. Their life revolved around drugs. The people living in their place were also drugs users and pushers. It was a drug world inside.
          Tikboy suffered a lot in the arms of his uncle, until one event caused him to flee away from that place and became one of those street children. Then, he met Bernie and Rolan, also street children like him. The three of them journeyed in life. Stealing, inhaling rugby and fleeing was their life by then, until they met Betina. Betina was the one who took care of them thinking that the children might love him back and accept what he was, gay. Even though he took care of them, fed them and gave them shelter, the boys would always sneak out and go back to their life. But when the time comes they would need Betina again, they would simply go back and Betina would always take them in. But that wasn’t fair anymore. Betina got tired of the things they always do and finally let them be.
          The boys grew up in the presence of drugs. Their life was separate by the time they were adults. They grew old, yet their purpose in life wasn’t yet found. Tikboy was always in and out of prison, Rolan got married with Maura who is also a user and pregnant while Bernie wasn’t found for a very long time.
          Tikboy met a lot of people, people who influenced him and let him see the reality of being an addict. It let him realize that he needed to change. He wanted a better life. Until he found the ShabuTiangge, found Bernie, and the death of Rolan, Maura and their baby, also the death of Bernie and Abdon, and finally seeing his Aunt Lukring again.
          He knew that there are a lot of things that should be happening to his life, not drugs taking him over. And so, they all checked in to rehab, and after a few years, they were clean and were new men. Those incidences made them realize that life is important and that one can really conquer addiction when he wants it.       

Characters:

Tikboy: Main character/ Drug pusher.
Abdon: Tikboy’s Uncle. 
Lukring: Tikboy’s Aunt.
Bernie: Tikboy’s childhood friend.
Rolan: Tikboy’s childhood friend.
Maura: Rolan’s wife
Roi: Tikboy’s friend.
Benita: The one who takes care of the 3 boys Tikboy, Rolan and Bernie.
Dessa: Drug pusher.
Thelma: User and girlfriend of Roi.
Digma: The one who introduced Tikboy the “ShabuTiangge”

Question#1: What events in the movie provide evidences for realities observe in the lives of people in our society?

The event where poverty is seen is that they have to sell their body in order to have money. Where children would just inhale Rugby so that their hunger would be suppressed. Where drugs were their only hope in making out in this would alive and killing people would be their only answer to have what they want.
          It was shown in the movie how their life was like a rat hole where everyone would all cram up to one place and get their supply (drugs). It showed how poor our country is. How people would engage themselves in drugs and their lives are always revolving in it. It shows how the people in our society that engaging in drugs would solve their problems and make them happy. They are saying that they cannot get out in this kind of life now because their lives are much better when drugs are around. Supporting them and making them live.

Question#2: What factors can you cite that influenced the drug – taking behaviors of the characters in the movie?        

Tikboy was influenced by his relatives and also by his friends to take drugs. It showed him how drugs can make money and also help in coping with his everyday life. By selling it and also using it for his own benefit. And so as he grew older, his life revolved around drugs too. The other example would be Thelma, Roi’s girlfriend. Because her boyfriend is an addict, she was influenced to take drugs as well. She thought it would be fun and that Roi would still stay with her if she followed him. If she would take drugs as well, Roi would love her more and keep her with him. Last would be Lukring, Tikboy’s Aunt. Because her husband Abdon is a user and a pusher, she was influenced to take drugs and to be pushed to sell her body for money. It wasn’t easy for her but she still followed what her husband told her.

Question#3: What insights did you learn from the movie regarding the drug problem, especially among the youth in the society? 

I realized that drug abuse doesn’t choose what age if it strikes someone. Sometimes it’s out of curiosity, poverty, friends, need or for money. The youth are the ones who are influenced most because they think it would be fun or cool if they use drugs. Some would use drugs in the form of rugby to suppress hunger. Because they are young and are not well educated about drugs, they tend to fall for the wonder and use of drugs. Also sometimes out of provision, the younger ones would just do it unnoticed by their parents and so it can lead to addiction and destruction of their lives in the end.

Question#4: How can we best prevent or reduce this drug menace that endangers/ threatens the welfare of people in society?

We can prevent drug menace first by erasing all drugs user and pushers in our society. Clean every place where drugs are abundant and also clean the people who were involved in drugs. It’s not also easy if the ones who are in charge won’t do their job. If drugs are still visible, people’s lives, families, and jobs would still be endangered. They are not educated about the threats of drug abuse. They would still think that drugs are helping them but they don’t know that it is the one who is slowly tarring their lives apart. And so, the government should erase drugs in our society, clean the people, and prevent it from happening again.

Friday, October 12, 2012

She's the Man.

I really like this movie! :D
First because Amanda bynes is the lead character, second because they play soccer and third because of Channing Tatum!
I like how the movie goes. Hilarious and cunning at the same time. Love interests and Hot guys roaming around! You cant miss this one! I REALLY had FUN watching this. Over and over again! :D

SHE'S THE MAN. 



The story centers on a teenage girl named Viola (Amanda Bynes) who learns that her school has cut her soccer team as an available sport. She disguises herself as her twin brother, taking his place at his new boarding school. Naturally, all sorts of romantic complications arise, as she falls for her new roommate, but is of course also the object of affection for a beautiful girl. Making matters even worse, when her actual twin, Sebastian, arrives, everything goes to turmoil.


ZE HOTTIE! *Dies*



A year Together. :">

This guy with me in this picture is named John Alphonse Jimena.
We have been through a lot of times together. Hard times, good times and even happy times. 


"They say that you cant live without someone who has been part of your life. You CAN LIVE, but the point is, your life isn't worth living at all anymore..."




1ST YEAR ANNIVERSARY. <3


The CAKE. :D


Our Bag-tags  :D


           I don't mind spending the rest of my life with someone like him. He is all that I wanted and he is all that I need. We make Epic moments together and a life worth living for. :"> 
           Yes, he is my bestfriend, my lover and soon to be...You get the point. ^^,

DATE: JUNE 6, 2012
EVENT: FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY
PLACE: SM AND EVERYWHERE
PERSON: JOHN ALPHONSE JIMENA





Welcome to Oblivion!

Kitang - kita naman oh. Natatamad ako sa NSTP! xD


Last day of our First Semester tomorrow! Horaaa! :D Oh yeah! Sem Break here we go! :D


Brought Baby Panda! :D 


Yeaa. its over! :D 


Friends who are never meant to be your friends...


Sunday, September 30, 2012


BURN!!! 

Pescar presents, SHADOW.






               The show depicted the dance of Northern and Southern Philippines, some dances here in Panay, Maria Cultural Suite, Panayana Cultural Group, WVSU Rondalla Ensemble, and Countryside dancers. It was all in all a great show. I’ve been watching the Pescar’s show for almost three years now and this one never failed to amaze me especially the Contemporary and Hip Hop dances. A big Two Thumbs Up!
               The Cultural Center was fully packed with students from West Visayas and also from other schools. It was really an anticipated event. The first dance was Usa – oy. The Grandest of all canao is the Uya – oy. The Uya – oy is mainly celebrated by a Kadangyan or chieftain of the village. The second dance was Bendian, the biggest Bendian is to celebrate a victory in war and a successful headhunt. It was followed by Pawakan or cockfighters dance. Next were Silong sa Sanding, Kappa Malong – Malong, La Jota Sevillana, Pandangguido BuraweÑo, Binasuan, and our very known Tinikling. The dances were all well prepared and the songs and costumes were also thrilling. I loved watching them dance and the crowd also agreed in my opinion.
               The Panaya Cultural Group also showed what they’ve got! They sang Ati – ati sa bukid, Dalawidaw and Kruhay. I was amazed how good they were. I for one am not a good singer. That’s why I really admire those people who can sing and are sharing their talents as well.
               But the best part is yet to come! The Contemporary Dances were also good. They dance, “Im too sexy for your love”, “Kung ako ay Iiwan mo”, “Hopeless” and the crowd favorite, “In the Jungle”. I too liked the Dance In the Jungle. It was fun and funny at the same time. Also because I knew some of the dancers and I’ve seen their dances way back then. And last but not the least, the Hip Hop dance, “The Race”. Their costume and style were entirely different from those of the folkdances. Of course, so not to bore the audience, they have to put their cream of the crop performance in the end. It was a great show! An awesome one indeed!
               I’m happy to watch Shadow. And I’m hoping there’s more in the future! Definitely a Two thumbs Up!
              















               

Reasons...




 Why Nursing?

               When I was young I always dreamt of being a nurse. I liked how they wore their uniforms, so proper and clean. The way they took care of their patients and show them how important it is for them to get well. I always felt secure and safe whenever I see them; smiling and assuring me I’ll be okay whenever I get sick and also because my parents wanted me to be like one too.  For me, they were like angels ready to help and ease the pain.
               But as I grew up, I never realized that being a nurse, especially a student nurse wouldn’t be that easy. I saw how they would pour out their time and effort in passing the course. How stressful it was to work rounds at the hospital, to pass the requirements on time, wear the uniform as properly as they can and keeping track of their lives.
               Being a nurse is such a noble profession but it has its pros and cons too. Helping people, saving lives and making them happy was what I always thought about their job, and doing everything to make the patient well again. But sometimes, when things get out of hand, one may not make it out alright and that really affects the nurse. It’s like one hasn’t fulfilled in making the patient survive. But, God has His own ways. I know He has plans for all of us.
               That’s the time when I got scared and had second thoughts in taking up the course. I never thought about the income I’ll get in the end. I never did. I wanted to live up to it. Do well in it. I got scared, frustrated and mad at my parents for pushing me in something I never really wanted. As high school was about to end, passing of applications and picking courses was my biggest dilemma. I haven’t decided what to take yet. I wanted to be a Physical Therapist. For the reason that, I wanted to help my Grandfather. I pitied him and I loved him very much. I wanted to make him well again and the payment for a private PT is too expensive and sometimes he gets tired easily when we go to the hospital for rehab. I really wanted to take that course, but they told me that I should try nursing then just shift during the second semester if I really don’t like it.
               The day of the interview came and I was still halfhearted in taking up nursing. I passed the exam and I’ve come this far in being a so – called nursing student of WVSU. One of the teachers asked me during the interview, “Why did you take nursing as your course?” I wasn’t shocked about the question. I anticipated that, days before the interview. What shocked me was my answer. Even though I was expecting that question, I never really thought about what answer to give. I was nervous that time, and I guess, what came out was purely coming from my heart. I answered that, “I wanted to help my family especially my grandfather. He is suffering from stroke and to be frank, I wanted to take the course Physical Therapy. But as I come to realize, there are so many things a nurse can do that just being a PT. I can help my family in so many ways compared to the other course. As a child I really did wanted to be a

Nurse, I was just scared of the things that may come in my way. But now, I’m gonna hold my ground and embrace this course. And someday, I’ll be a nurse too.”
               Until now, I can’t forget my answer. I realized that I was scared for my future. It wasn’t a joke for me. This will be my life in the end. This is my career. All I need to do is do my best in everything that I do. My family was one of the reasons that motivated me in becoming a nurse. They were the reason why I’m taking this course and why I really want to do well in it. I know it’s not just a season that will come and go. This will really test how strong I’ll be when I face all of this. All I know is that I have them whenever I need them and also to my teachers, friends and to God. 

Saturday, September 15, 2012

HiGH SCHOOL TO COLLEGE BUDDiES! 


We surprised our high school teacher by greeting him a Happy Birthday on his Special day. :"> We ourselves were surprised too as we accidentally spotted him or he spotted us first as we roamed around the premises of our high school area. xD It was fun!
High school buddies to College buddies will last forever! 

L - R: Me, Nikki, Doryn, Nicole, April, Zenny, melbin and Alphonse. :D

Pag - iririmaw '12

Made my headdress all by myself. >.<

             Had a really hard time making one and fortunately I finished it just in time for the parade. I miss those "Angels" that helped me in all my "artistic-related" dilemmas. Projects, how to cut a piece piece of paper, glue something or even color a picture. Not only in this kinds of things but also through anything. Problems, heartaches, troubles, fun times, gossip, war-thingies, just through anything at all. And I cant lie that I dont miss them. Coz honestly, I miss them all so much!! Very very much! And seeing them after a long period of time makes me wanna go back to the good old days. To my high school years. To our bonding times and cat fight times. It all means so much to me. And right now, its hard to cope up without them and even harder knowing that schedules, classes and other circumstances are blocking our way. I just wish that this friendship would really last a lifetime. Even in our death beds. :"> Kidding! All I wanna say is that, I MISS YOU GUYS ALL SO MUCH! And I love you! Im sorry for all the times that I have been gone or not that visible. I know I've made my mistakes and there's no way to change that. Only to make another memory that could re-do our thing. I wish you will all be successful someday. All of us. And for us to be together again. Just text or call. I know nobody can break our friendship. Grupo forever!



DATE: JULY 7
EVENT: PAG - IRIRIMAW '12
WHERE: NB BLDG/WVSU GROUNDS

Sunday, September 2, 2012

“The other girl in a White Uniform”

About me…Hmm. Who I am? What my life is all about? What topic to talk? Stories to tell? Honestly, there are so many things I would tell about myself. Is just that, I don’t know where to start or if I would even get the words out correctly. But I don’t want to brag like I’m all THAT. Because actually, I’m just a freshman student enrolled in one of the most prestigious school here in Iloilo and is taking up the course Bachelor of Science in Nursing.
I don’t want to sound so big headed or so right about the things that I would tell. But I hope you (the one who is reading) would cope with me as I go along the way. Imagine! I would write 3 pages about myself?! I don’t know what things I would eventually write here. I might even flow out of the topic itself. So far I like how I am going with this. I actually find it interesting. I do have a passion for writing, not to mention my poor grammar, or talk about current events involving social media and other people. I even once considered Journalism as my career. For now, I’ll stick to where I am, and enjoy as much as I can until my body gives up. Just kidding. And so, bear with me!
To start with, my name is Winona Yvonne B. Olimpo. If you’re wondering what my middle initial is, its Barbero. Barbero as in the barber man. I always feel awkward or embarrassed whenever someone asks about my middle name. But now, I think it’s funny. To think I have an awesome middle name. (thought you wanted to know about it) Moving on, I’m 17 years old and currently living in Ph.2 Sunflower St. Alta Tierra Village Jaro, Iloilo City. It’s a 30 minute ride from our house to school. I’ve been in the same school since kindergarten, elementary, high school, and now even college! Yup! Have been studying here in WVSU for quite a long time now. Maybe 12 years already? I’ve spent almost two – thirds of my childhood in this school. And until now, look where I am? Still in this school. Loyalty Award! :D I’m athletic, friendly, easy going, some find me funny and others think I’m very serious. Depends on my mood though. I play the piano, guitar and sometimes I also write songs just to past the time or if I’m really upset or happy. I have two siblings both also came from this school. My brother is named Ralph a fresh graduate of John B. Lacson, and my little sister who is not that little and in fact bigger than me, is a 4th year high school student here. We were all raised by our grandmother coz our parents are too busy working and providing all the things that we need.
I could tell you about a story, a funny one or something very personal to me. But I’m still weighing my options. It’s like giving half of my secret or even my identity to someone I barely even know or if I could talk about my stories without giving too much information. But as far as I can remember, the last article I’ve made was way back when I was in third year high school. I was so very eager to win an award whenever we had journalism contests outside and in the school. And I would feel glad that I chose to be a journalist. But as that year was coming to an end, we were tasked to write some articles which will be included in our school paper. I wrote so many articles, passed those which I really thought about. In the end, not even one was published in our school paper. I was crushed. Degraded. Hurt. Embarrassed. And so, my self – esteem slightly faded. Maybe it wasn’t really meant for me, but I just wished that even one of my articles was published. And when I was already a senior, I didn’t feel like giving it another shot and I let it passed. In the end, I regretted not wasting my effort on that time. And now, I’m pouring it here! Just writing and writing and writing until where the page may take us. I’ve come to realize that part of growing up was also making the decisions and also acting to what you should be and what you would become eventually. I’m a college a student now. There’s more to life that we expected.
People would always say that time flies when you’re having fun. I agree to that! I’ve lead my life as happy as I could be. Despite all the challenges that were in my way when I was growing up. That feeling when your mother wasn’t there to comfort you whenever you feel sad or downhearted, all you could do is lay in bed and pray for the problems to go away. Or that longing for your father to come home during the holidays and feel sad again when it’s time for him to go back to his work. I admit, until now I’m still not used to it. I even shed little tears whenever they leave or even arrive. Growing was never easy without either or even both of my parents. But I’m thankful that they are still with me even though they’re far away. Love binds us all together.
As I mentioned before, I’m a nursing student here in WVSU. And believe me, I am very scared of the things other people are saying about this course. How difficult it is, how you don’t get to sleep at night or even think well because of the many things to study. When I was young I really dreamt in becoming a nurse like my aunt. To serve in the hospital and wore those nice white uniforms. But as I come to realize, it wasn’t that easy after all. Of course you’ll have to do a lot of things first before you’re called a certified “nurse”. Those sleepless nights, duties and rounds at the hospitals, SCARY THINGS in the hospital and God – knows – what other mischiefs are in the hospital at night! For now I’m just girl wearing a white uniform and is abeled as a nursing student. I’m really doing my best to make my parents proud of me. They really wanted for me to become a nurse. But sometimes, frankly I also doubt my capabilities. Thinking I’m not enough for this kind of course and might even cause embarrassment to them. I’m still a freshman student, and I know I will still eat a lot of rice (if you know what I mean) and will really go a long way. I just cross my fingers for now and really hope for the best. This is also for my future. I want to be successful someday! Everybody wants to be successful, right? I just really need to focus and really do my best in everything that I do. But also not to step on others and be humble as well. For now Im taking every step that leads me to my future. I can’t say that the road would all be too nice and comfy. I know there are a lot of obstacles. But with the help of my parents, my friends, teachers, classmates and also those who love me and knows me very much and also last but not the least, God, I know I can surpass anything that is in my way. Also I have to trust myself too. If I don’t believe in myself, then who will? People say that your greatest motivator is also yourself. If you believe in your goals and dreams, one can really achieve them with a lot of effort and with the help of some people who are also willing to take the journey with you.
          For now, I’m still in a verge of growing up. Trying to find out a lot of things. A lot more confused on what’s going on around me and why other things or people are like what they are. I am somehow having a little shock on my environment where I’m considered a college student already. It’s like yesterday I was pulling my yellow and blue trolley bag up the stairs to my kindergarten classroom along with my grandmother. But now, look at me. High heels, handbag, big books, white uniforms and together with my friends. Sometimes I think to myself if I were given a chance to go back in time, it would those times where my only problem was how to play at the swing when the other kid leaves while the other kids are also trying to make their move. Or what crayon to pick when coloring a book or sharing your snack to somebody. Those times where you don’t have to deal with any problem. Now, I realized that as long as I grew older, there would be a lot of bigger things to ponder upon or more decisions to make wisely. I’m a young adult now and somehow I should really act that way. Be responsible in what I do and what I say. To be a proper lady and abide the rules set in becoming a proper person. I know my story is a little bit jumbled up (as I said) but I hope, you have taken a slight piece of me after you read my composition. I want to share anything with you as long as it is all related. I know I should be talking about some topic or story, but hey! This is my story. My life, who I am and what I am made of. 

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Friends can be Lovers.

the crankiness. :)


            He was my first boyfriend. Period. But that doesn't mean we were perfect and all. We started out as mere classmates and just nobodies when we were in grade 5. He was the so - called "crush ng bayan". He's cute, charming, has gorgeous eyes, those athletic skills and growing sex appeal.  I never even liked him one bit. For me, he is obnoxious, arrogant, and so high that he could almost reach the skies. Or just maybe I dont know him that much. Of course, we were classmates and obviously we would grow into each other's skin. Sometimes he would tease me and would laugh at me when I get embarrass. I mean, what's wrong with him?! Can't he just leave me alone. For all I know, he's a PERVERT! Got that right. I've heard stories about him, but thats another topic. Anyways, I didn't know how far we got closer to each other. That summer, 2007, I didn't know how it started but we end up texting each other. We shared our secrets and sometimes sleep the whole night holding my phone waiting for his reply. He was really growing into me. One night, one very stupid thing happened. He got mad at me for no reason at all! He was so cold and he kept on saying bad things. I was hurt! Of course, I ended up crying. I mean, duh?! Why would I cry because of someone I hate so much? And then knew from my other friend that he and his girlfriend broke up. Ex - girlfriend. From that day onwards, I started to understand him. I got closer to him. And as we started our 6th grade, he asked me if I was serious about the things I've said to him and I know I was! I threw it back at him and he said he was too. Well, the funny part, my friends who witnessed the tragic thing thought we were boyfriend and girlfriend. Reality check! I dont even know how we ended up like that! *_* BOYFRIEND and GIRLFRIEND? No way! Our "relationship" ended up after 5 days. I called if off. I mean, how can you call it a relationship when you cant even look into each others eyes? I cant even talk to him. I got shy and got.....


TO BE CONTINUED....



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